I should be careful...

I already chose between this twoo guys who made me confuse for how many weeks.

It's a relief. Really. But I have this fear in me. I am afraid that the one I chose is a very dangerous guy. (hahaha!)

I am not really afraid of him, I am afraid of the mere fact that we have the same attitude towards our last relationship. We have this attitude of being a flirt, flirting with two or more guys in my case.

I really don't want to have a karma.

I already hurt a lot of guys. That is why I am thinking or maybe just being paranoid that this guys will bring the karma to me.

I am not yet sure if I love this guy. I am just having fun, but I have this feeling that I want to take him seriously.


I have to be careful...



Really careful...

Flirt??? Nah!!!!

Can somebody please tell me what's wrong with flirting?

Ok..I am aware of this impression to a girl who flirts with a guy. It is not decent in the eyes of who ever might see you treating a guy so sweet when the he is not even your boyfriend. It's as if your committing a deadly sin when you flirt. But sorry for those who are moralst, for me, flirting is not a crime!

I know that I am a flirt, but I am not a slut! Take note of that, it's two different things! Lots of girls are accusing me of being such a flirt, and I do admit to that fact. I am not proud of being one, but I am just being honest. I mean, why would I have to wear a mask of a girl who is so nice and smiles very sweet in a shy way when I laugh loud everytime there is something funny? Why would I pretend to be that type of girl who avoids guys when in fact I enjoys spending time and having fun with them. Why would I curse guys when in fact I have a lot of guy friends? I am not a Plastic! And if a person would hate me for being like, I don't care!

Oh well, I wrote this one because I was so pissed! So pissed to a girl who's always telling me that I am a flirt as if she's not! Atleast I know my limit. I don't flirt with guys who already has his responsibility. Evrybody knows what I mean. I am after those guys who are definitely single and available. just like me.

At the end of the day..I am still the kind of girl who looks for a guy who is into serious relationship like me.

There is nothing wrong in flirting. Period. ;)

I HATE HIM!!!!!

Why is he so maarte!!

Is he maarte or he is just busy doing a lot of stuffs!

I hate it!

I must say...fling is not just someone that you are having fun with...

i have to be CAREFULL....really CAREFULL...


I'm falling...damn!!!


This can't be happening!!


Looser me!!!

Tsk!!

I'm tired...

This entry will be very wierd for some of you.

I want to end this!!

I don't like this!!

But I can't do nothing but to cry...


I lost my cellphone yesterday...and now I think I am going to let go of something, and I hate that!!


I wanna do something!!


But I don't know what...

I don't know why...


I don't know HOW...


God please help me...I know your the only one who could help me...Dear God please..



I'm loosing my grip to my self!!



Don't want this to happen...




I really don't want it!!



HELP!!!




I wanna cry...



I just wanted to be happy...




TO BE HAPPY....

pLease..wake me up when september ends....

geeez...i thought the only one who hates this months is my dear friend. I don't have any reasons to hate this month. Actually I even love it when september is here..it only means two things: It's my fathers birthday month and it's the start of Christmas.!!

But this morning, something happened that is really shocking. Something that gives me reason to hate this month.

I am on my way to the university. I have my bag on my lap. I was facing the window and a lot of things are playing into my mind. I have to do a lot of things today. My schedule is a jampack! Suddenly, half way going to school there are three guys who went inside the jeepney. I pay them no attention. The hell I care about them. I just noticed that they are all wearing white shirts. One of the guys sat beside me and I got nervous bacause I smelled that he is drunk. After a few minutes the lady in front of me told me that the guy spitted and all he's saliva is on my hair!! Gross right! But I just hope that that was the only thing that happened. I did not expect that worse is yet to come. Because I was so pissed removing those freaking saliva of the "old" man, I didn't notice that the other guy is getting something from my bag.

I went down because I can't take the situation. It's too late before I found out that my beloved phone is not in my bag anymore.

I really don't know what to do. Good thing I wasn't able to curse those man who got my phone.

An old man told me while I am cleaning my hair that I should not get mad to those guys, I should not curse them,instead I should pray for them.

"Whatever the devil got from you, the Lord will give you something better"

That was the exact word of the weird man to me.

Maybe he is right. Atleast I don't have to do such things just to have money.

Good thing, I am working right now, I am earning my own money and in time I am going to buy my new cellphone. Better than my 5200. hahahah!!

The only thing that makes me sad is the thought that it was a gift to my mom, and my mom gave that phone to me during my debut bacause I really want the model.

Bless those people who get my phone.

My dear friend is right, maybe I should not hate the whole month of September, just the this exact day of September.